16 April 2009

A is for Attitude

Jamaica 2009
Originally uploaded by MarciNYC

Over the past year, I've successfully lost nearly 50 pounds. Actually, I was at that magic number in March, but gained a bit of it back before Easter/Passover and have been working hard to get back to that milestone. Today, I'm down another 4.6 pounds - back to a total of 47 pounds in all.

A few weeks ago, a friend gave me a picture of myself from 2004. When I first looked at it, I didn't recognize myself. Who was that girl with the round face and chubby arms? When I realized it was me, I was horrified. I really was F-A-T. Five years later and 40+ pounds less, I am proud of who I am and how far I've come on my journey. I never quite believed that Weight Watchers would work for me. I tried it prior to my wedding in 1999 and lost about 15 pounds before giving up.

My one year WW anniversary was March 15th. I celebrated with my group, even though I had a slight gain that week. I am so appreciative of their support and encouragement. I couldn't have made this journey without them to hold me while I struggled, pick me up and put me back on the path when I stumble, and most of all for sharing their Sunday mornings with me.

This past week I had an epiphany of sorts. I decided it was time for the old, self-loathing Marci to finally pack her bags and go. It was time for Marci to realize that she is beautiful, she is sexy, and she has a lot to offer the world. It was time to put Marci first. I invested in some new, sexy unmentionables, went to Brazil (if you get my drift) and had my nails done. It's time to show off my assets - and not hide under baggy, frumpy clothes.

My new mantra is "nothing tastes as good as being sexy feels" and even though I've got another 25 pounds or so until I reach my goal, I've decided that I am sexy as I am. I believe is more than just a physical state, but a mental state as well. I'm working that attitude - and will continue to do so until I reach my ultimate goal.


lorem ipsum said...

YES!!!!!!!! You ARE beautiful, you ARE sexy, you DO have a lot to offer the world. (Just don't get into the habit of speaking of yourself in the third person.)

Plant Girl said...

You rock!

You have made fantastic progress in the last year and I'm beyond excited to hear that the mental image is catching up! Sometimes it just takes something a little lacy and a little racy to help reset the mental image!

You are sexy and beautiful. I'm glad that you're seeing it now!

Susan Helene Gottfried said...

You go, my friend.

And for the record, you're not fat in that picture!

Nic said...

You're doing fantastically well!