Originally uploaded by MarciNYC
Over the past year, I've successfully lost nearly 50 pounds. Actually, I was at that magic number in March, but gained a bit of it back before Easter/Passover and have been working hard to get back to that milestone. Today, I'm down another 4.6 pounds - back to a total of 47 pounds in all.
A few weeks ago, a friend gave me a picture of myself from 2004. When I first looked at it, I didn't recognize myself. Who was that girl with the round face and chubby arms? When I realized it was me, I was horrified. I really was F-A-T. Five years later and 40+ pounds less, I am proud of who I am and how far I've come on my journey. I never quite believed that Weight Watchers would work for me. I tried it prior to my wedding in 1999 and lost about 15 pounds before giving up.
My one year WW anniversary was March 15th. I celebrated with my group, even though I had a slight gain that week. I am so appreciative of their support and encouragement. I couldn't have made this journey without them to hold me while I struggled, pick me up and put me back on the path when I stumble, and most of all for sharing their Sunday mornings with me.
This past week I had an epiphany of sorts. I decided it was time for the old, self-loathing Marci to finally pack her bags and go. It was time for Marci to realize that she is beautiful, she is sexy, and she has a lot to offer the world. It was time to put Marci first. I invested in some new, sexy unmentionables, went to Brazil (if you get my drift) and had my nails done. It's time to show off my assets - and not hide under baggy, frumpy clothes.
My new mantra is "nothing tastes as good as being sexy feels" and even though I've got another 25 pounds or so until I reach my goal, I've decided that I am sexy as I am. I believe is more than just a physical state, but a mental state as well. I'm working that attitude - and will continue to do so until I reach my ultimate goal.